Monday, May 9, 2011

Self discovery

Sometimes I wonder what's my purpose in life and sometimes I wonder what am I doing?I wanna be happy and lead a happy life. I want to do something that will bring joy and satisfaction to me. I just started my first phase of adulthood and that is working. I always wonder how do others do it? Perhaps I need to know what I love to do and that will make me happy and look forward to work but the question is, what is the ideal job for me? What will ultimately make me happy?I wanna go on an adventure a roadtrip, meet people, have fun and discover life. I want to be happy because right now my heart is empty.I shall embark on a quest to find happiness and the journey of self discovery.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Fear of work.

Good morning world,im down with fever and have trouble sleeping so what a better way to 'kill' time? thats it! Blog. On Monday, it will be my first day of work. Suddenly, i don't really feel like reporting to work.I'm sacred, in fact very scared. I think i suffer from Ergophobia; the fear of work.

(Ergophobia is an overwhelming, irrational fear of work. The ergophobic individual may fear that they are incapable of handling their job responsibilities and are destined to fail at work. Other people coping with Ergophobia may be fearful of work meetings or committees and having to speak in front of groups of their colleagues.


Sometimes referred to as Ergasiophobia, this word derives from the Greek “ergon”, meaning work and “phobos” meaning fear.) -www.healthmad.com

Sigh, Hope all goes well on Monday.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

NEW POST

How long has it been since i blogged?
2011 has been great for me.
Im looking forward to a new change in my life soon, insyallah.
Till a better post.

Asslamualaikum =)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

On VCR's and Memories



Remember this? Its called the videocassette recorder. My family used to have one at home in the 90s. We will use a videotape cassette to record any tv shows or watch any videos that we rented or bought. These days, people use the DVD player instead.Sometimes, i wished the mind could function like a videocassette recorder and we could play any wonderful memories of our choice,pause at the best parts and delete whatever memories we never wanted.That way, we wont be 'haunted' with bad memories that just wont go away.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

KAWAN

Kawan,teman,rakan...
Semua membawa erti yang sama. Dalam kehidupan ini,kita haruslah pandai memilih kawan. Kawan boleh membahagiakan kami atau merosakkan kami. Cara kehidupan kita juga boleh terjejas kerana kawan.Terpulanglah pada empunya diri untuk memilih mana yang baik, mana yang yang tidak.Apa yang saya pelajari dari berkawan? Jangan terlalu baik dengan kawan kerana kadang kala jasa dan budi baik kita tidak akan dihargai. Apabila ini terjadi, barulah kita tahu siapa benar-benar kawan sejati dan siapa "kawan".

Semoga ini menjadi iktibar kepada anda. =)

Friday, December 31, 2010

2010/11

What a year it has been. This year itself, i went through two minor surgeries. And Alhamdulillah both surgeries went well without complications.
These are my reflections for year 2010.
I made new friends
Had some misunderstandings with old friends
Gained valuable knowledge
Gained new experience
Finally able to fry the 'perfect' fried rice
Took lots of pictures especially on special occasions
Had my first baju kurung tailor made
Had my first sleepover
Had my first MAKEOVER
Ate lots of delicious food
Do volunteer work
HAD LOTS OF FUN WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS
Turned TWENTY
Despite all these, i am still single. -___- who knows, maybe 2011 will bring someone new into my life?

I thank Allah for letting me go through all these and for granting me the most supportive, caring and loving family and friends. Insyaallah,2011 will be better and filled with happy memories. I had fun in 2010 and i hope in 2011 i'll be an even better muslim and person.I hope to learn more and gain as much knowledge and life experience.

Happy New Year Y'all!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

song

Another favourite song from Maher Zain.

CARLORINO

Look what my mum bought for me yesterday,





Alhamdulillah.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I was feeling down so i listened to this song and alhamdulillah it made me feel better.



Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can`t see which way to go
Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insya Allah 2x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can`t repent
And that its way too late
Your`re so confused,wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame



[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/inyaallah-lyrics-maher-zain.html ]

Don`t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah 2x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way
Insya Allah 2x
Insya Allah you`ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He`s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don`t let me go astray
You`re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way 2x
Insya Allah 2x
Insya Allah we`ll find the way

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Maal Hijrah





Hari Awal Muharram atau Hari Maal Hijrah merupakan suatu hari yang penting bagi umat Islam kerana ia menandakan peristiwa penting yang berlaku dalam sejarah Islam. Ia memperingati penghijrahan Nabi Muhammad dari Kota Makkah ke Madinah pada tahun 622 Masihi. Berlaku pada 1 Muharam, ia merupakan hari pertama Takwim Hijrah.- wikipedia.

The Islamic New Year (Arabic: رأس السنة الهجرية‎ Ras as-Sana al-Hijreya) is the day that marks the beginning of a new Islamic calendar year, and is the day on which the year count is incremented. The first day of the year is observed on the first day of Muharram, the first month in the Islamic calendar.-wikipedia


Yesterday marks the New Year in the Islamic Calendar. Therefore i wish in this new year that i be a better Muslim and do more than what I have been doing, Insyallah.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

7

Sometimes its nice to be appreciated.And i wished i was.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Vegan

For dinner,me, my sister and ,my mum went vegan. We dined at a restaurant called 'VEGAN BURG' a 10 minute walk from home.And the coolest part about the restaurant is everything that it serves is vegan, no meat no dairy products,no preservatives and 100% organic. Wow!
Too be honest,I was quite hesitant at first as the thought of soy based patties sounds weird. But when i took my first bite of my burger, my oh my it was so delicious!My thoughts on vegetarian food changed instantly. I will definitely dine there again and maybe bring my friends along too. My sister ordered organic cola which to my surprise tasted similar to coke and definitely healthier as there was no caffeine.But this does not mean i will be a vegetarian or vegan, but include vegan meals in my food choice and maybe add an alternative for me to eat healthy rather than junk food.

I guess going green definitely has its advantages. We not only help save the earth but lead a healthier lifestyle.

Assalamualaikum. =)

Friday, October 29, 2010

children's home

Today would be my second trip to a children's home.I was there to sign up as a volunteer and observe my friend as she trains a group of 12 children for a performance.For both times i was there, i always develop this strange feeling.A feeling of wanting to visit again.The children are so adorable and full of energy.

Today's visit left an impact on me.When i look at the children, it left me thinking how very fortunate we are to have parents who love us and have a proper home to go back to with our own personal space;our bedroom.When we have a problem or get bullied in school, we run home crying to our mother who will hug us and comfort us. With her warmth,we feel secure and safe. With her soothing words we are rest assured that everything will be OK.We need something, we will depend on our father for financial support and he will be there to help us.But when i look at the children i feel so sorry for them. For those who are orphans, all they have are their other 'brothers' and 'sisters' and care givers who can only afford to give limited love, something not equivalent to a mother's or father's love. And when they have a problem there will be no one to hug them, sing a lullaby or tell them that everything will be ok.

I thank Allah for opening my eyes and giving me a chance to see one other part of life, be part of this experience and for giving me such wonderful parents.

When we look at our life and wished we had a better life, we should look at others who are less fortunate.My father once said " those with parents are the richest of people as they get a lot of love". Love is the greatest gift of all, even all the riches in the world cant buy love. Treat our parents well before we lose them because when they are no longer in this world we will truly miss every moment with them. Treasure all that we have and always be thankful for what Allah has given us.

Inshaallah this has benefited you.

Assalamualaikum.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

hypocrite in islam

A few weeks back, i learned about the characteristics of a hypocrite(munafik) in islam and boy was i scared. I would like to share with you this important information as i find it useful for us and also myself to reflect upon ourselves so that we do not fall into this category.

“The signs of the hypocrite are three: when he speaks he lies, when he promises he breaks his promise and when he is entrusted he betrays the trust.” (Bukhari and Muslim)

“…even if he prays and fasts and imagines that he is a Muslim.” (Muslim)


The Hypocrites will be in the lowest depths of the Fire: no helper wilt thou find for them; (The Noble Quran, 4:145)"

"To the Hypocrites give the glad tidings that there is for them (but) a grievous penalty; (The Noble Quran, 4:138)"

"O Prophet! strive hard against the Unbelievers and the Hypocrites, and be firm against them. Their abode is Hell,- an evil refuge indeed. (The Noble Quran, 9:73)"

Astaghfirullah. Sometimes i feel that i fall in this category.Therefore to all my friends reading this post, please forgive me in any event ive broken a promise,lied or broken a trust as i really do not want to be a hypocrite.

'May Allah swt guide us to the right path, make us better muslims and forgive our sins.'
AMEEN.

O Allah, I seek forgiveness for every sin, I committed, about which, of course, You know inside and out, from the beginning to the end of my life, whether committed deliberately or intentionally, few or many, abstruse or manifest, old or new, secretly carried out or openly done; and for whatever wrong I have done I turn repentant unto You and beseech You to bless Muhammad and the children of Muhammad and forgive all my unjust acts I did to wrong the people (because they have rights which I have to recognize and fulfill) but You have full authority to forgive those wrongdoings whenever and howsoever You wish, O the most merciful.

ALLAHUMMA INNEE ASTAGHFIRUKA LIKULLI D'AMBIN JARAA BIHEE I'LMUKA FIYYA WA A'LAYYA ILAA AAKHIRI U'MREE BI-JAMEE-I D'UNOOBEE LI-AWWALIHAA WA AAKHIRIHAA WA A'MADIHAA WA KHAT A-IHAA WA QALEELIHAA WA KATHEERIHAA WA DAQEEQIHAA WA JALEELIHAA WA QADEEMIHAA WA H'ADEETHIHAA WA SIRRIHAA WA A'LAANIYATIHAA WA JAMEE-I MAA ANAA MUD'NIBUHOO WA ATOOBU ILAYKA WA AS-ALUKA AN TUS'ALLIYA A'LAA MUH'AMMADIN WA AALI MUH'AMMADIN WA AN TAGHFIRA LEE JAMEE-A, MAA AH'S'AYTU MIM MAZ'AALIMIL I'BAADI QIBALEE FA-INNA LI-IBAADIKA A'LAYYA H'UQOOQAN WA ANAA MURTAHINUM BIHAA TAGHFIRUHAA KAYFA SHI-TA WA ANNAA SHIA-TA YAA ARH'AMAR RAAH'IMEEN - dua.org









Inshaallah this has benefited you.
Assalamualaikum

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Lessons from backbiting

O you who believe! Avoid much suspicion, in deeds some suspicions are sins. And spy not neither backbite one another. Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother? You would hate it (so hate backbiting). And fear God, verily, God is the one who accepts repentance, Most Merciful. (49: 12)

Islam is a religion of peace, love and compassion. Lies, suspicion, back biting, slander and gossip are totally alien to Islam. In fact they are considered amongst the most destructive of major sins. This is so because these sins sow enmity and discord among the Muslim Ummah and lead to its destruction. They cause hostilities between people of the same household, and between neighbors, friends and relatives.

Islam demands that our relationship with mankind should be one of sincerity and responsibility. It should be one where we have respect for the honor, reputation and privacy of others. Islam teaches us that we are not only held accountable for our own attitudes and actions but also for anything else over which we have control or influence over, in our society or the world around us.
-islamawareness.net


The reason why im blogging on backbiting is because im one of those people guilty of backbiting and hope the story im about to share will be a lesson to not only you but a reminder to me so that i will stop backbiting as the consequence is just something that i dont want to go through again.Today, something happened and im really thankful to Allah swt for letting me go through this experience thus giving me a chance to redeem myself.

Today i decided to backbite a friend by smsing another friend..By Allah's will, i accidentally sent the sms to the person i intend to backbite.This is one of the most embarrassing moment ever. Alhamdulillah its all settled now,im in good terms with my friend, im thankful that Allah made this incident happen as it made me realise the consequence of backbiting. Allah has given me a good friend who has accepted my apology, if she didn't forgive me, i think id be depressed for a long time.

Dear friend, im truly sorry for my actions, Im really embarrassed with myself. Today, i learned to not let my emotions get the better of me. If im unhappy with certain issues i think its best to discuss instead of backbiting and also to learn to be less selfish, be sensitve towards other people's feelings and be more understanding.

Hopefully this story on backbiting benefits you. Inshaallah, with lessons like this i learn from my mistakes and improve to be a better person and a better muslim.

MAY PEACE BE UPON YOU.

Friday, October 22, 2010

life as we know it

LIFE
Today, someone in my family passed away, last week my cousin got engaged. Life sure is a mystery.Like my mum said " a life ends, a new life is created" How amazing this process is, minus the death part off course.But imagine a life without death, how crowded this world would be.


HUMAN PREJUDICE
I had a conversation with a friend and we were discussing on the 'fate' of people.We discussed an idea that all humans were created differently thus leading different lives therefore we shouldn't judge people when they go 'haywire' but instead be grateful that Allah Swt has created us the way we are. When we have friends whose lives differ from us and their lifestyle not to our liking, we should make dua for them and inshaallah Allah gives them guidance.I think we were destined to befriend many different people from all walks of life so that we take their life stories as examples and learn from it and inshaallah not repeat what they did.

Inshaallah this has benefited you, May Allah swt forgive our sins,make us better humans and muslims and guide us to the right path.Ameen.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

hm

omg, its deja vu all over again.. i give up. pleasing everyone isnt the simplest of tasks.



sigh.

hm

omg, its deja vu all over again.. i give up. pleasing everyone isnt the simplest of tasks.



sigh.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

For the rest of my life

My sister let me listen to a song entitled "For The Rest Of My Life" from Maher Zain. Now im addicted to most of his songs. Here is the lyrics of 'For the rest of my life' its very beautiful.

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

Monday, September 27, 2010

sakit

1) Besarnya pahala sesuai dgn besarnya ujian dan cobaan. Sesungguhnya Allah ‘Azza wajalla bila menyenangi suatu kaum Allah menguji mereka. Barangsiapa bersabar maka baginya manfaat kesabarannya dan barangsiapa murka maka baginya murka Allah. {HR.Tarmidzi)

2)Seorang hamba memiliki suatu derajat di surga. Ketika dia tidak dapat mencapainya dgn amal-amal kebaikannya maka Allah menguji dan mencobanya agar dia mencapai derajat itu.